Maybe its the influence of my ridiculous brothers, but for fear of sounding like a major cheese-ball, I usually try to stay away from posting deep, reflective, journalistic stuff on my blog. It’s not really my style anyway. But I’ve been listening to whimsical Enya all day and it makes me feel like writing so, I’m just warning you: Don’t be shocked if this becomes somewhat of a garbled rant.
Like the rest of you, I’ve been thinking about 2011 and it’s events. I’m sure I’m not the only one that feels like it came and went before I could even blink. There were quite a few times when I felt like I just wanted to hit pause and take everything in because it happened so fast I was spinning. “It” being a huge mixture of random events and emotions that made up my year: from the busy and sometimes, challenging days at work, to the date nights with my good friends, to the research/planning/booking of our trip to Europe, to the summer bonfires, to the 12am phone call from a good friend exclaiming that she was engaged, to the WEDDING that followed months later, to all my little trips to the beautiful island, to every darling little baby that I got to cuddle, to all the new and interesting people I met, to the incredible places I got to travel to, to the hiccups in every plan I attempted to make, to the tears of uncertainty and fear, to the excitement of everything that was fresh and new to me, to the lessons I learned the hard way, to my friends and family who have put up with a lot, and to the feeling of being 20 and unsure of what direction I was heading.
Life is crazy and weird. Sometimes I get anxious feeling like I haven’t accomplished very much. But if I just stop, take a breather and think about how full and rich my days have been… well it’s like a smack in the face. I have been insanely lucky and while a lot comes from hard work, I know I have a lot of people to thank too.
If you follow my blog, well, first of all, thank you… and I apologize that it’s been so hit and miss. Second of all, you mighta noticed that I really enjoy quotes. I don’t know what it is about them; maybe just how they can summarize a really good thought in a small amount of words. Anyway, I’ve come across a thought-provoking paragraph in a book I’m reading. I’m not 100% sure if I agree with every aspect of the book but I found this interesting:
“The only reason why people do not have what they want is because they are thinking more about what they don’t want than what they do want. Listen to your thoughts, and listen to the words you are saying.”
It’s crazy how powerful the mind is. Positive thoughts keep a person going and going; negative thoughts can pretty quickly become a downward spiral. To actually take note of what kind of thoughts you’re having can tell you a lot about yourself. And I believe that everyone has the power to turn a situation around just by changing his/her mindset; consciously shutting out bad thoughts and repeating the good ones over. It sounds kind of silly but I’m just sure that there is something to it.
That might come across more deep than it was really meant to be. But it’s more or less my New Year’s Resolution. I really don’t know what to expect or what adventures I will get myself into this year but… I’d really like to keep a positive outlook through it all, because I think that’s been one of my weaknesses this past year. I wish you all luck in doing the same :)